Day 336

This is the man for me

Day 338

Happy thanksgiving everyone! Though this is not our first thanksgiving together, it is our first thanksgiving together engaged! :) It is also the last one we will be spending with our last names being different. I cant believe its already the end of November! 

The whole idea of family has really come back to me in the last week. Though I know I have always had family I guess i feel it more now, if that makes sense. Probably doesn't but I feel more apart of my life now than I have in the last three years and its wonderful. 

Danny and I got the opportunity to attend a Red Hot Chili Peppers concert, in Portland OR. It was a blast. Our baby girl Eren came with us and it was a great break from the mundane. We did get a speeding ticket on our way home but that was my fault because my work schedule was making us cut it pretty close. Either way it was worth the trip, some guy rubbed his butt on Danny. It was a hoot! 


Danny's sister and us have been chatting all about cake's and cupcakes. All those who are attending the wedding are in for a great treat! I have read that when you are planning your wedding you are supposed to pick three things/aspects that are the most important for you and splurge on them. For me, the cake would be in the top three. It means so much to us that she is handling this with such care. We get to start taste testing on Sunday, yum!

My dress should be here in the next couple weeks, which is very exciting. The bridesmaids have all been looking at dresses and pretty much have their selections made. Once they are actually purchased I will share. 

We did decide what we wanted to do for the guestbook. Originally, I wanted to have a picture made and have everyone stamp their finger prints as leaves on a tree or birds on a branch. Though I still find this idea adorable, we have found something else that would be more suitable. There will be a table with a Polaroid camera and have people take their own pictures (or have help from others) of what they look like at our wedding. Instead of signing a guest book we will ask our guests to give us advice or words of wisdom. Then I will make a scrapbook and put their handwritten advice on the same page as their Polaroid. Here are some pictures I am using as inspiration for this idea.

Day 350

Hello again,

This week has been full of ups and downs. We had someone loose our trust and friendship completely. He tried to create a wedge between us by disrespecting me. However, he truthfully just made himself look like ass, but i will say it was a trying time. 

Some awesome things happened this week too! We began asking people to be in our wedding court.  Ironically this was the first wedding craft we started a week after we got engaged. 

What we did was buy a bunch of cigar boxes (from craftware house) and paint them our wedding colors. Each box was painted and then sponge painted a little bit differently.

Then we monogrammed them each persons  first initial.

I matted the inside with a quote from William Shakespeare that we thought was very fitting for our attitude about our wedding.

"To unpathed waters and undreamed shores"

 We began filling them with little bribery items personalized for each individual. 

Each person also got mini bottles of liquor based on what we know as their favorite drink, except my younger sister who is not old enough to drink. She was substituted lime green (her favorite color) head phones to go with the music player she got for her 16th birthday.

We also wrote a letter to each person asking them to fulfill these spots in our wedding. I used coffee to make the letters look old and rolled them up like a scroll and tied them with twine.  

We wrote more for the girls, the boys simply say "Your service as a groomsmen is requested." We figured they wouldn't need any more hoopla. 

The girls got:

• Chocolate with proceeds that are donated to endangered animals (always nice to help)
• 2 Nail polishes
• two bottles of liquor (or headphones)

The boys got: 

• Cigars
• two bottles of liquor
• mints
• toothpicks

I took some of the left over paint and dipped Popsicle craft sticks in each wedding color for each person so they would have something to compare with when they are shopping.

Finally I wrapped each box in a recycled Winco paper bag, tied twine around it and then stamped it with a carpe diem and started handing them out. 

So far the reactions have been wonderful. Here is the line up in case you were wondering:

Best Man/Lady: Eren York ( Best friend of the bride and groom, long story will explain later)

Groomsmen: Brian Sorensen (brother of the groom)

Groomsmen: Loren Saywers (brother of the bride)

Maid of Honor: Karisa Saywers (sister of the bride)

Bridesmaid: Lindsey Littlejohn (sister of the bride)

Bridesmaid: Holly Myers (best friend of the bride)

Ring security: Sir Diesel pants (nephew)

The other great wedding advancement that took place this weekend was that we found our cake baker! Danny and I had talked about asking someone around us to help with the cake, we thought it would be special to have someone close to make it. A few names came to mind but the most prominent was Danny's sister Angela. We wanted to wait until the perfect time to ask her. Yesterday Angela and I started texting about thanksgiving and the wedding and the cake baking came up. She offered to do it before I was even able to ask! We are all really excited, we have already started talking about recipes and designs. She has so many great treats you can check out her blog yourself!  Angela, Herself

Day 354

I write to get my emotions out, usually in the form of letters I will never send. Here is yet another one of those instances to the jerk of the week. 

To the shadows of friends we once knew:

Though I will never fully understand your motives against our hopes, I will say that I hear your cries and will not alter my courage to your demands. Despite the best efforts we will not stop loving each other or ourselves. We never intended to hurt anyone and I am exhausted of fighting my own grief for blame of words I never spoke. The self entitled job to love everyone and everything comes with its burdens and I have felt them silently until now when my anger fills the spaces in my heart and I can no longer promise solidarity.

I have given friendship with the most honest intentions and in return my name is slandered? Forgive me, but this is not companionship. We were supposed to be friends, no matter the distance. People who genuinely cared for one another. But now i’m just a vagina that ruined other peoples relationships. No one is willing to stand up and say what happened was wrong?

But some how I am still standing up for you. I am protecting you against all the people who want to defend my honor, because in my heart I still see your goodness. My grace and rage are fighting a battle inside. My heart is saying let those who have my best interests at heart teach some manners, but my head is promoting peace. How dare you attempt to abuse my name and try to destroy my dignity in the name of your shallow gain. Yes I have had mistakes and I will be the first one to draw upon them, because I have learned my lessons the long way, and i’m not ashamed of who I am. Are you?

Your pettiness has surprised me. Take lessons from mine and learn how a real man treats a lady. Perhaps you wont be alone then.

Thank you for showing me the strength of the people around me and reminding me that all my efforts are being carefully gardened.

Best of luck